Uncertainty, fear, doubt.. Those three words certainly fit this writer at the moment.
Major curveballs have been thrown my way; I'm having to rethink/restructure my entire life. So, I've been working through a bit of confusion about me and writing.
Have you ever felt like you couldn't do something? You just wanted to quit? Do any of the following sound familiar? - "I'm just not cut out for this. I can't write, my writing stinks. I don't know what the hell I'm doing! Maybe I'm not a writer, after all."
Not the best thinking, eh? But then I go through this whole other spiel in my head: if I'm really not meant to be a writer, why do I keep going back to it? Why do I beat myself up when I don't write? Why do I see everything as a possible story, if I'm not a writer?
I have bits of story ideas written everywhere and snippets of scenes or dialogue in my journal and notebooks and even have a handful of docs sitting on my desktop, no titles, just saved as "new idea" or a character's name.
I decided to sign-up for A Round of Words in 80 Days to help me focus and reconnect with this love affair that is currently on ice.
Scoop on this week's goals so far:
Monday - 0 words (I made the decision to sign-up late and was exhausted after I posted so, no words on Monday.)
Tuesday - 314 words
Wednesday - 270, so far
Napoleon Hill said, "You are searching for the magic key that will unlock the door to the source of power; and yet you have the key in your own hands, and you may use it the moment you learn to control your thoughts."
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| Old pic, but so appropriate. |
2 comments:
Hi Viansa, welcome to ROW80 :) I believe you'll find that every writer possesses that same uncertainty, fear and doubt- even the successful ones. But if you think about it, every writer's writing stinks at first. There's a reason they say you have to write a million words of crap before you really get into your writing groove. We all question our work and that's okay. The key is to keep writing anyway and get feedback along the way. You will improve. We all do. We are, after all, our own worst critics. And my inner critic? Oh he's mean. The thing is, if you can put writing down and never come back to it then you're not a writer. But clearly you are because you keep coming back to it. I hope you find your magical key :) Good luck!
Hi Viansa,
I know what you are going through. I have read Napolean Hill's books as well as Dennis Kimbro's also. I have also had to learn how to write through my fear.
Sometimes it helps by reading and responding on other people's blogs that I follow. And there are times when I have to make myself sit down at my MacBook and begin to write. What I am trying to say, is that controlling your thoughts begin with you writing. Try writing with no particular goal in mind. Let your mind ramble as your fingers tip out your thoughts.
I find it very helpful to keep a journal and I use my evernote app for that.
I hope you find yourself and will be thinking of you.
Ciao,
Patricia
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